So I've recently started re-writing a few songs I've already "published". The story of the song is exactly where I wanted it to be but the delivery wasn't perfect. I'm taught the only way to write a Hit song is to be completely honest with yourself and your audience. So here is the Story of an old song about to make a new Debut in a few months.
The Story:
It had been almost 7 months since
my ex-boyfriend had completely tore me apart. I was ruined and I thought things
could never be the same. I knew I didn’t need a boy to live my life, so I spent
the next 7 months of my life focused purely on my music and treated men like
dirt. I rejected their calls and offers left and right. I strung them along and
tore them down just the same way I had been because, apparently, I thought I
could change the male race. Then one day I woke up, I decided that maybe it is
possible for me to forgive and let someone into my life again. So I signed up
for an institute class at school, the only reason people really take those
classes is to mix and mingle. I walked in and my eyes when straight to his. As
he sat in the front row, he looked up at me and I asked if I could sit next to
him. He seemed quite and it was intriguing for some reason. He was awkward and
shy but at the same time captivated my attention with just a smile.
As the
semester went on I couldn’t wait to go to my institute class, just 50 minutes a
week was all I saw him but it kept me constantly thirsting for more. He found
out I was a songwriter and asked me to write him a song, I told him I can’t
because I only write mean songs for boys and he was too nice. He laughed. He
was so adventurous and I was seeking something new in my life. He snowboards,
rock climbs loves the outdoors and had such strong faith. He was everything I
was striving to become. For some reason I wanted to be with him all the time. I
had only felt this once before and I knew how terribly that ended but it didn’t
seem to matter. After much waiting and trying to hint that I thought he was
something special he asked me on a date to go rock climbing. I was so trilled
all my hard work paid off but the timing was wrong. I had a singing performance
that night and I had to turn his invitation down, I was devastated. It had
taken him almost 2 months before working up the courage, I guess, to ask me out
and I had to say no. Then later than evening after my show I texted him to see
if he wanted to do something else. He replied inviting me over to his house to
watch a movie. I quickly got dressed and drove to see him. I was so excited! Everything
was going perfect, we had great conversations and I could really see myself
being good friends with this kid. After that evening I had to wait a whole week
to see him again in class, it was miserable. But when I did nothing had
changed, I was still just another girl. No more invitations came to hangout
that weekend. I was so confused, had I done something wrong? But then in April,
the last month of class he asked me out on another date to eat sushi, I was
nervous because I had never had it but I went anyway. It was such a trip,
needless to say I had a difficult time eating it but I pretended I liked it
anyway. On the way home from that evening festivities we were listening to Jack
Johnson and John Mayer. He told me how
he loved the song Stop this Train because of the relationship it shares between
John and his Parents. He also asked me if I would tell him id he had a good
voice, he sang for me better together by Jack Johnson. I died; it was the
sweetest Tenor voice. I would have listened to him for hours. After that evening I was officially hooked!
There was no turning back I had a huge Crush on this boy. He had managed to
make all the pain and sorrow disappear. It was like my heart had been healed
again and that I can love.
Well there
were only 2 more classes left and that was all the time I got to spend with
him. He never asked me out again but I was head over heels and I wasn’t about
to let this one get away. I knew that earlier that year as a joke he had asked
me to write him a song. And I knew that if I wanted him to know how I felt that
is exactly what I was going to have to do. I knew this was a big risk. I could
get totally rejected and heart broken again or have a fantastic movie moment to
tell for years. The night before the last class I wrote a song, a Great song.
My pen just danced on the paper. The words seemed to just flow out so
naturally. The music came to life and everything was just perfect.
After class
we walked to the library where our final goodbyes would take place. Once we
started to part I worked up the courage to stop him and hand him the CD. He was
in total shock that I had actually written him a song. He gave me a huge hug
then proceeded to walk away. My stomach seriously dropped at this moment. What
was I thinking? People don’t do this in real life! But I couldn’t go back now.
5 minutes later, he texted me. I was nervous to check my phone but I eventually
did. “Chantel, you’re song was Amazing!” When I read those words I being to
shake and cry. He liked my song! But did he like what I said in the song? I
replied, “Thanks! It was really nice getting to know you this semester” leaving
it open for him to ask me out again or answer back to my song. He said, “It was
nice meeting you too”. That was it. He never talked to me again.
Life is
funny sometimes, this story could have been a romantic fairytale but instead it
turned out exactly how reality does, sucky. We don’t always end up with the
hotness monster or any boy in fact. Sometimes we have to step back and look
what we really gained from these silly life situations. I didn’t land the boy
or even another date, but I did get a new song, which has opened many doors in
my music career. Most importantly he helped me open my heart again. Yes, he
turned me down and I could have taken that negatively and went right back to
the dark whole I was in, but I knew I never wanted to go back to that place. I
just wanted to be happy again. And for that I thank him. Because someday,
somewhere, I’ll meet a boy and he will appreciate me for who I am, I wont have
to try and impress him or change my lifestyle to fit his. Because things will
just happen naturally and only good can come from that. There is a boy just
waiting to notice each one of us, we just have to be open to the danger of
getting hurt and let him in.
